I think I've been handling it well.
Wednesday I even went into work for a meeting without crying as I crossed the American Legion bridge. Well, I didn't cry on the way there. I think it was a combination of being tired and rush hour that I didn't have time to look in my rearview mirror and see the empty car seat base that she usually occupies. On the way home, in little traffic, I looked back there to see the empty base and started crying.
Thursday I got a little sad as I spent the morning at home alone. Then I went and got an eyebrow wax. That helped for an hour. Then I called the daycare and got to hear about her day and Miss Carola also helped me by saying I was going to see her in 3 short hours.
Today was different. It's her first full day and I was missing her before 10:00 am. I called Aunt Esther to talk and started driving to the mall to go shopping. Then I realized I needed to pump and turned around and went home. Pumping helped me not miss her as much. Then I remembered we recorded Lost so I watched that and then tried again to get to the mall. Now I'm blogging and watching The Daily Show.
So, I guess I'm good as long as I keep busy, or watch TV - now I know how stay at home moms with kids in school can become coach potatoes.
Next week I transition back into work. I'm nervous about being away from her for so long - 7:00 am - 6:30 pm on a good day. So, starting Wednesday I add some hours until I have a full day away on Friday. And that's a blog for next week.
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